Today I am going back home late again.
I walked to my car from the office. It is dark and cold. There are not many cars left in the car park, so my white car has become an obvious object. This is a perfect reflection of my feeling – empty. The loneliness is amplified especially in the dark.
I do not blame anyone for my unhappiness, after all it is my choice. Also, I should not be very busy since I have not fully taken over the new role yet. Perhaps I am not efficient enough, and I think I am not doing a very good job. It is not about the stress my new job; stress is always there, but my ability of handling it has reduced due to some reasons.
My mood is going up and down like roller coaster, easily gets influenced by other’s words as well as expectation about me. My feeling has no place to rest like a lost soul, whatever I feel… is beyond my control sometimes.
Will see how life goes!
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