Life

Job Change

I have just resigned from my job after only one year at this organisation. This is the shortest period of my career as I do not usually quit a job unless I move to another country.

It is not that I do not like my work, but it has consumed me too much. I felt burnt out, exhausted and worried all the time… and I did not realise the change in me until Ben told me.

I have been squeezed out and have nothing left in the tank.

Sometimes, I miss the time when I still had the energy to go to dancing classes after work. I miss having the time to travel, write, read books and learn new things.

At the end of the day, work is only one aspect of life. If the ways of working is unsustainable, then why stay?

I might look fragile, but in the deep down of my heart, I am still that strong and fearless gal who is not afraid to start over again… just like when I left everything behind and came to New Zealand alone ten years ago despite many people told me that it was not a good idea.

I have written many reasons to leave the job (not posting here). Once I heard someone say: “You are exhausted not because you have done too much, but because you haven’t done enough that makes you joy”… and I could not agree more.

But honestly, I had nothing to complain about – as it was a good promotion for me when I flipped last year. Even though I am now going back to my ex-organisation, I am still much better off as compared to last year.

I think my ‘regret’ come from giving up an opportunity to leave after 3 months at this organisation… as I was reluctant to change again. In hindsight, I was too desperate to settle down.

But last year was not a waste. I still have learnt things that are important to me. This experience has also taught me to be more firm and improve my decisions in the future. Therefore, I cannot really say that I regret it.

By the way, I took 2 weeks off before starting my new role which is a luxury for me! Since I moved to Melbourne, I got into a job very quickly and I always kept myself occupied.

That 2 week break – although it was only 2 weeks, but it meant a lot to me. During those 2 weeks, I reflected a lot on my life and what had happened in the last year. In addition, I have also done many house things such as fixing the leaking bathroom, garage door, dishwasher, etc. As I was too busy at my work for these things.

I was always in a rush to find something and keep myself busy all the time… but I am actually a simple gal – all I want is to settle down in a peaceful place with the love of my life.