This blog post is written for a very important friend in my life. She had a big influence on my life, without her my story would not be the same.
I received a very meaningful gift from her a few years ago. It is a crystal apple necklace. I love crystal, because every crystal is unique and has a meaning. A purple crystal means wisdom, a pink crystal means love, a blue crystal means peaceful… and so on.
At the crystal shop, we chose the colour of the crystal that we like and then we bought for each other. She chose a white crystal apple while I chose a brown crystal apple. I still remember our conversation:
“Are you sure you want this?”
“Yes.”
“Why are you getting a brown apple, it looks like a poisoned apple!”
“Haha”
“There are so many healthy apples out there, but in the end you chose a poisoned apple!”
“I like it,”
“Do you know, I watched a drama – the actress…….. (long story)………… Finally she understood about love, the brown apple turned into a red apple.”
I was waiting for the brown crystal apple turning red, but then I realized, it won’t happen.
She draws an apple tree for me. This drawing is very important for me, as it reminds me of some memories, as well as our precious friendship. It is priceless. This is something specifically for me and, only for me.
There is only one apple on the tree, so I think it seems a bit sorrowful. I told her that it looks like there is a bite on the apple. She smiled, and then she said there is no ‘perfect’ in life, and so is the apple. Everything has flaw.
A lot of things happened and she was always by my side. She is the type of friend that – when I am down, she appears right in front of me. She protects me carefully from being hurt. She cares about my feeling all the time. She is a brave woman who has her own way of life. I appreciate her very much, though I am not good in expressing my gratitude.
I recall the time when I was drunk in her house, she holds my hand encouraging me to be brave. I recall the time when I broke up with my ex-boyfriend, she came to my house cheering me up every day despite I have turned her down many times. I recall the time when we walked together in a very busy street, I felt comfortable even when we were not talking to each other.
Sometimes my mind went blank when I looked at the necklace and the drawing. Sometimes I kept smiling when I looked at our photos and video. I couldn’t forget about her. Till now, I still cannot understand why she breaks off relationship with me. I couldn’t stop my tears, but now I can only keep my words in heart.
I know she wanted a family very much. Looking at her photos of new life, her smiling expression told me that she is contented. Isn’t that enough? As long as she is happy, it will be a good ending. 🙂
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