Today I watched the movie “Wild”. It is a true story of a woman who was lost and embarked on a challenging trek across Pacific Crest Trail. Finally she found herself along the journey. It is an inspiring story.
I chose this movie because the backpack that she was wearing on the DVD cover attracts me. I was a backpacker 3 years ago. My backpack was about the same size as hers, though I did not have a sleeping bag at that time. I thought our story will be about the same.
But her story is completely different from mine, and we have different personality. We do have one thing in common – lost the very important person in our life. She had expressed her grief many times for her mother who died of lung cancer at age 45. I recalled that my father died of lung cancer too. It has already been more than 7 years and I still feel the pain. This is the wound which will stay with us forever.
In the end of the movie, she said she wouldn’t have done any single thing differently if she could go back to the past.
I remember long time ago once I wrote:
“If time could turn back, I still wouldn’t want to go back to the past. All these things have made up of who I am now. If I didn’t experience all these, I will be a different person.” At that time, I hope to meet someone who understands me and love me for who I am.
I think the author is lucky. She has someone who loves her and a best friend who really cares about her – someone to look for when she is in trouble. And her mother was amazing.
Sometimes I cried badly, even until today. I know my father is the only person who loves me unconditionally in the world. I should have done more. I am glad that I come to New Zealand and able to live by my own. I did it. An impulsive might change our life, I promised to live well no matter what happens. Well, who knows what’s ahead?
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