I am a little bit depressed lately. I guess I think too much.
I am feeling lost though I am very clear of what I want in my life. Sometimes I do not want to move on, so the bad thing won’t happen on me. Sometimes I am afraid that my dream will not be realised despite my hard efforts. I feel a strong loneliness, which has been formed in many years. I am also scared of taking the new job, as I always worried that I am not performing well.
About my new job, I am still working for the same company. I will be taking up a 12 months secondment into a commercial operations role, which is totally different as compared to what I am doing now in finance department. I will officially start the new role on 18 August which is one week from now, but I have already received pressures from various people.
Once I started my new job I will be working at the client site in town, which spends me about 1 hour commuting time (one-way including traffic jam). This is horrible because my current job only take 5 minutes commuting time, so it will be increased by more than 10 times!
I do not regret of my choice because, never try never know. I am conscious that, my life will change again. I just need to adjust my way of thinking!
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