I will leave New Zealand for Melbourne by the end of this year. Ben has just started a new job in Melbourne and I am still working on a 1-year fixed term job in Wellington until November. It means we will be living separately for half a year.
I love to explore a new country which reminds me of my excitement when I was moving to New Zealand. The very first reason of creating Opposite Journey is to write down all the good and bad things in a new place, so I will never forget them. I look forward to moving to Melbourne in the hope for more inspiration for my blog.
We spent 4 days in Melbourne together before I came back to Wellington alone. I have done many things in this short visit, e.g. view 3 apartments with Ben, explore South Yarra and Brighton and St Kilda, open an Australian bank account, meet my relatives and Ben’s colleague, walk around in the university and so on. What a busy trip!
Ben introduced me to his colleagues. They threw an afternoon tea party to welcome Ben! They seem so nice and friendly. Ben also has a private and cosy room at his office. I believe he will enjoy his new job.
The saddest thing for me in this journey is that, I am not able to move in together with Ben. We cannot share the same joy or frustration of moving into a new city. That’s my biggest regret but we both respect each other’s decision for what we think is the best decision for our career. Both of us are quite stressed at the moment as there are so many things to do for the migration.
We also feel painful to put the apartment on the market. We hope to find a buyer soon, but at the same time, we will miss our apartment so much as this is our first home. Ben said he will be ‘nesting’ in Melbourne first and is waiting for me to come.
I don’t know if anything will ever change when I move on, or everything will change when I leave again. I am excited about the new journey in Melbourne, yet afraid of uncertainty because I don’t know what will happen next.
When I was saying goodbye to Ben I realised that, sometimes it is harder to stay than to leave. I think about the people that I have left behind when I came to New Zealand, now I am one of them. But I don’t feel bad because this is the way I asked for it to happen because I want Ben to pursue his career and happiness – just like my family and friends let me go though they were worried about me.
For half a year, I will have no one but to rely on my own. But I am sure that I will be alright because I have had experience on this. We are just waiting for the moment to come. 🙂
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